Oh how I long for happiness....
Happiness, a word that seems to be loosing its meaning and value in my world.Some are lucky to experience it, others...like me for example...are not as fortunate....Happiness to me is like a song which is over played on the radio waves...overplayed till u'r ears start bleeding when the first tune hits the ear drums....u get so sick of feeling it's end that u start to get sick of it starting..Just like Love, Happiness is SUPPOSED to be eternal and everlasting...but instead Power seems to be more and more eternal and everlasting...
When I think about it...all those fairy tales I grew up watching and reading seems to have even less meaning then it once did."Love Conquers All" , "Good Vanquishes Evil" , "Power is Fleeting while Love is Eternal" , all of which most fairy tales are based on, are logically rubbish, and yet the human mind believes that it is gospel truth and prays for it to actually happen, which then in-turn makes the human mind weak and allow the heart to hurt.The False hope of Love bringing Happiness, when it seems that Power has always been able to control and make way for that same Love and Happiness that we all want to feel, and yet traveling down the road to Power demands that the tool to feel Love and Happiness is to be disabled and done-away with. I laugh at such an irony.How much is the heart able to endure till it turns cold and stony ? Never to be warm and kind, never to allow love to enter its doors,yet still praying for happiness.
Perhaps I'm looking at it wrong, perhaps these are the signs of a heart which is turning into a Godless Shrine, light is slowly dimming due to the lack of prayers and worship to the Almighty.I was taught that "With God all is possible".Perhaps the reason why my soul seems lifeless is due to the lack of prayer and worship. After all when was the last time i gave thanks to my God? I shamefully admit that i have neglected God, though i have no excuse as to why i have done this. This is the part of me that needs fixing.
But what if....even after i have returned to God and my heart still feels like the void, what then?........